Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Auto-pilot Journey

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Has anyone had the experience of being hacked lately?  In this electronic age, I doubt that many reading this post have been untouched by this nasty issue.  It happened to me very recently, and in stages that I later learned were interconnected.  It started with my Facebook account being hacked, then progressed a week later to my primary email account getting hit, and finally, my banking account was infiltrated.  Each occurrence was time consuming to address, and annoying in the extreme.  Thankfully, the majority of people who know me are aware that I wouldn't ever send spamming links (via email), or post similar links on my Facebook page.  The banking account hacking was obviously the most concerning episode of this whole experience, as it could have had extremely damaging repercussions.  I am fortunate that I bank with a federal credit union, and that my credit/debit card that was tied to this account was 100% protected.  This did not, however, keep me from going through protracted clean-up of the whole mess.  In fact, not a day has gone by in the two weeks since this happened without me remembering one more company I need to contact about the cancelled credit card.


Of course, nothing life threatening happened.  Life didn't stop; I wasn't affected beyond having to scramble to make sure monthly bills had, indeed, been paid during the fallout period of the hacking event.  What happened was that I was forced to go back to using my check book for purchases.  Remember that?  It used to be the commonplace manner of commerce for all of us.  We wrote checks and we realized that big purchases might sometimes take longer to process, so we were more mindful of our purchasing activity.  I readily admit that the convenience of having a debit card allows me to be less responsible with my spending habits.  Debit cards post purchases so quickly to our banking accounts, and those accounts are immediately accessible via the internet that we all tend to whip that card out with very little thought these days.

So, in the midst of all this cleaning up of the multiple hacking events, what I recognized was that perhaps this series of events occurred as a wake up call for me.  I am not suggesting that I zip around, madly spending with that debit card, or that I'm irresponsible with the money that I have.  To the contrary, I'm probably one of the more financially responsible people you're likely to meet.  That being said, I do know that that debit card encouraged me to be a bit more blithe with my finances than was necessary.

In the approximate ten days that I waited on my new debit card to be processed and mailed to me, I immediately became more aware of how I behaved with my money.  Writing a check to purchase something takes longer than swiping a credit card; as a result, it forces you to move more methodically, more slowly, and to be more aware of what you're doing.  As is my habit, when something of this nature occurs and grabs my conscious attention, I look for the deeper message.

Around the time all of this was happening to me, we were approaching Easter week.  This high holy week is one that causes the whole world to slow down, to ponder very deep concepts, and to be appreciative on myriad levels.  As is common of spiritual holidays, many people choose to release from their physical bodies around Easter (and Christmas and several other holy days).  In my own personal sphere, two people close to me passed away.  Both were unexpected deaths, as both people were vital, active individuals that no one would have expected to have to say that final goodbye to with such abruptness.  Consequently, yet more moments demanded that I stop going through life on a bit of an auto-pilot status.  Two beautiful Souls left this earth in an unexpected manner, reminding us all of the capriciousness of Life in general.  There is Divine Order to the moment each of us quits this life, and there are also lessons to be learned when someone near us passes over.

Why am I weaving these occurrences together?  Is it absurd to see a common thread in my life between being multiply hacked and the passing of two special people?  What I am focusing on is that all of these events jarred me.  They stripped my life down to some very bare bones, to a very elemental, quiet state.  I was forced to go back to a more simple method of commerce, and I found that it wasn't necessarily a bad experience.  It gave me clarity on some of my habits that had become sloppy and slightly unconscious with finances.  We also become lazy with relationships.  It isn't a harsh, condemning statement that I make here....it is human nature for us all to get distracted, to coast through life occasionally and to take a wide range of people and things for granted.  We all do it.  Daily, weekly, monthly, yearly. 

It is only when an abrupt change hits our personal horizon that we wake up from our auto-pilot journey.  The image above has the text: 

Autopilot Off....Make A Sound
I found that to be a very profound example of what has been running through my mind as I contemplated writing this article.  When we're existing in auto-pilot mode, or in car terms, in cruise control, we're doing so much less than we're capable of.  In effect, we're muffling our unique sound. While every second of every day shouldn't necessarily be jam packed with mindful activity, there is definitely merit in identifying lazy behavior, or lack of attention to those areas, people and experiences that truly matter.  Yes, I have days where I don't want the weight of the world on my shoulders and I want to simply exist, but for the most part, I admit that I want to be making sound.  I want to be making a difference, and I want to be living my life out loud.

Therefore, as I continue to tidy up the detritus of this multiple hacking experience, I also give a nod of recognition and thanks to God/Universe/Spirit to the lesson contained therein.  I got it.  I saw it.  I absorbed it and I made some necessary changes and adjustments in my personal life.  The two beloved souls that crossed over during this time period are not ones that can be replaced.  This is obvious.  The loss of both of them leaves this world irrevocably changed, stripping multiple hearts of their presence, their smiles, their laughter and their unique energy.  I was fundamentally reminded of how brief and fleeting this Life is, and these two losses, combined with the mechanical failure of being hacked, presented me with a strong opportunity to grow.  These occurrences might seem to have no overlapping energy to those reading this blog, but for me, they had a penetrating effect on how I look at the world. 

Will I go back to that old, familiar, convenient and comfortable auto-pilot method with my finances?  Most likely, I will....to a degree.  We do all embrace convenience readily, if we're honest.  This lesson, however, went much deeper for me than simple financial responsibility.  I do believe that from this point forward, I will have a much more conscious approach each time I swipe that convenient little card.  To those who know me well, I am a proponent of living consciously.  Of being responsible for our actions, thoughts and words on an immediate level. 

I believe that every single thing we do has dramatic impact on those around us, and that this impact is far reaching.  Science proves to us that we react on a cellular level to everything that bombards our physical and emotional bodies.  The events of the past two weeks gave me several powerful nudges and reminded me that I've slipped a bit, here and there.  These events were a clear indicator that I had been on a bit more of an auto-pilot journey than I would prefer.  As a result, I've made adjustments accordingly, and I've taken time to put my ensuing thoughts on screen here.  It is my goal to always be mindful, to always be engaged, to always be aware and to always be consciously interacting with my own personal experience and with those who weave in and out of my personal experience. 

Sometimes the reminder comes in electronic format, and is a general annoyance to process.  Sometimes the reminder is more extreme, and touches the heart with ragged claws, rending and waking us up dramatically.  The multi-fold reminder, for me, is that living Life on an auto-pilot journey is not my preference.  Instead, I will take the general annoyances as a wake-up call.  And I will also take the deeper, painful personal losses and retain the stripe given.  One experience nudged me to be more personally accountable on a financial level; two other experiences reminded me to be more present in personal relationships.  And Logic tells me that each of these experiences cannot be successfully lived on autopilot status.  When we turn our personal autopilot off, I daresay that Life does make a sound. 

15 comments:

  1. It's always nice to take the scenic route through life. Sometimes we get to running the super highways so much we forget the rest of the world. So glad you hacking experience wasn't too bad.

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  2. Anna, I agree w/ you so much on this thought! And how apropo a description you gave it - "running the super highways". I'm happy that the hacking issues delivered a clear message amidst all the annoyance fallout. Thanks, as always, for visiting, reading and commenting. :)

    ~ Dawn

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  3. The back to basic financial situation does make one stop and think. Really does make you aware of your spending patterns. And the loss of close ones does make you appreciate relationships that may need more input.
    Good reminders to pull into a layby on the super highway of life now and again.

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  4. Jim, thanks for stopping by! Another close friend asked me today why I had been so quiet on the blogging front, and my reply was that I just need time to process everything that hit all at once. I'm glad to be back on the writing "super highway", but more aware of those layby opportunities. :)

    ~ Dawn

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  5. Thanks for posting this on Writers. My poor excuse for not checking in: Too Busy...And as a result, I too have suffered the consequences. I've been trying to figure out who or what hacked into my FB. What I found was Akamai netsession interface. When I googled it, I found some people referring to it as a virus, and others saying it was a reputable program. Touch Facebook is actually for itouch ipad products...which makes no sense because this is on my computer/laptop. Sorry for the long comment, but I thought you might like to know and help alert others to this growing problem. So far, I haven't found a way to get rid of or stop Akamai. I was registered in October 2010 for one year? Confusing to say the least. That aside, thank you for you insightful words. It really made me stop and think, and Slow Down! I've been so wound up with my projects, I needed to slow down. Healing Morning gave me just what I needed. Thank you

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  6. San, I'm glad that you were able to track down the culprit of your FB problems. I hope you were able to resolve it and make it go away, because I know how frustrating it can be to have such a vital form of communication compromised. In addition, I'm happy to hear that you enjoyed this post and that it gave a valuable moment of calm. Namaste', dear one!

    ~ Dawn

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  7. What a fantastic journey this was - Stop and smell the flower - I do that often now - take time to breathe - thanks a ton for sharing!

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  8. It's amazing what it takes for us to stop and appreciate what is going on around us. I hate that this happened to you, but happy that you were able to get it resolved in a relatively short time frame. Thanks so much for sharing:)

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  9. Kriti, isn't breathing through it all so very important?! My own experiences were minor in the grand scheme of life, and I knew that as it was all occurring. I'm glad I'm of the mindset to take this type of experience for the obvious chance to grow and change that it was. That being said, I admit to wanting to yank my hair out a time or two, from sheer frustration. That's when the remembering to breathe part came in handy. Thanks so much for visiting today. :)

    Mary, yep, I agree....sometimes it's almost embarrassing the level of action necessary to grab our focus. I'm glad that I pay close attention these days, as it's so much easier to address things in an immediate manner than to ignore them and let them grow & necessitate more dramatic methods to gain our attention. My own little bump in the road passed fairly quickly, I'm happy to say. And it sparked a blog post, so it had more than one positive to celebrate. :)

    Namaste' to you both,

    Dawn

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  10. My thoughts! Our daily lives are filled with repeating the same experiences... we begin to embed it within our memory. We become lazy and never challenge the self. The routine becomes something we identify with. This turns into a false sense of stability or balance..... leading to auto pilot!
    That is not living that is simply avoiding to see what else is there... Hugs

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  11. Savira, yep, all true. Although I put concerted effort into living consciously, I'm do slip on a regular basis. Sometimes some reminder nudges are necessary to help clear the mental fog.

    Namaste', dear one! I always love to hear your thoughts. <3

    ~ Dawn

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  12. Dawn, I am so sorry to hear of these troubles. First, the hacking experience must have been an unparalleled ordeal. These trials do stop us in our tracks, and cause us to look for the lessons to be learned from them. I’ve had similar experiences, so I know they are scary. And then the death of two loved ones and the grief on top of all this… my deepest condolence.
    ~ Love and blessings

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  13. Debra, thank you for your sincere, loving thoughts and energy. As is my habit, when tough times hit, I usually write them out of my system. This particular series knocked me low for a while, I admit, and I needed time to recover - more from the deaths than the hacking. I just needed to be silent for a while. I am glad I wrote the feelings and experiences out and shared them here. That helped me to process and move forward. After last night's storms and death tolls here in the south, I am even more appreciative of the blessings in my life.

    Namaste',

    Dawn

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  14. Thanks, Dawn,
    I love the way you perceive and process. You are my kind of human being.

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  15. Linda, you got the Comments section to cooperate, I see! Woo Hoodles - isn't is satisfying when we outsmart technology?! ;-)

    Thank you for your kind words. I look forward to the two of us growing in friendship and blogging.

    Namaste',

    Dawn

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