My Mom, in fact, has been quoted as saying, "When I look for fruit for my daughter, Dawn, I pick the pieces that could be used as a substitute for a hockey puck or baseball, and I know she'll be happy." My Mom, by the way, is on the opposite end of the spectrum and adores juicy, ripe fruit....peaches that almost dissolve at the first bite, bananas that have turned brown and are extremely soft and sweet.
You're sitting there reading this and wondering what my point is, aren't you? I recently posted a response to one of those fun Blog Awards (Blog Award Positivity) that has you list favorite blogs and then list some personal info. One of the comments I received was from a lovely new friend, Lisa Brandel, author of The Widow Lady blog. The following was the wonderful comment she left for me:
"I started following you a while back, both here and on Twitter. Your Tweets are little sprinkles of happy dust in the virtual world...and now that I have actually had time to read your blog...I see that same sparkle here too. Much love dear and thank you for sharing this special energy with the virtual world!" Lisa Brandel, The Widow Lady blogYou may see this as bit of self-aggrandizement, to publish such a nicely written, complementary Comment. I won't argue the fact that it made me very happy to read Lisa's comment, but I don't feel using it as a source of inspiration is necessarily blowing my own horn overly loudly. What Lisa's comment made me contemplate, and be appreciative of, is how determinedly I have chosen to stay true to myself. It hasn't always been easy over the years.
The plain truth is, most people fit into the juicy, squishy fruit category and I'm way over on the other end of the proverbial see-saw, dangling high up there in mid-air, simply because it's usually just me over on that end. I think differently than most, and I'm quite aware of that. It took some time for me to fully embrace my own quirks and unique traits, and quite a bit of courage to give them voice back in my early twenties. Now, at this point in my life, I am simply Me. I revel in the fact that I prefer slightly (okay, completely) unripe fruit, that I find Divine Presence most often outside of a brick and mortar church, that I firmly believe in the presence of magical moments, and that my uniqueness quite often makes others stop, pause and occasionally view the world through my different perspective.
I also cannot ignore the fact that many times, people observe my point of view and declare quite roundly that I'm lacking in judgment, that I'm too idealistic, too romantic, or any manner of negatives. (Personally, I find most of those to be compliments, with the exception of the lacking in judgement one.) I generally just smile at those types and keep living my life as works best for me. There's old mountain wisdom that says, "Nobody beats a dead dog." This means that if you're alive and making your mark in the world, you're going to get kudos and you're also going to meet those that simply aren't going to be fans. I have come to know that naysayers, in a rather quirky way, are a bit of a pat on the back for me to remember that, yep, I'm still on the right path!
I don't expect others to necessarily adopt my choices, or beliefs, or tastes. Very few prefer the extra tart, crunchy fruit side of life, and that's okay. I see beautiful balance in my own life and how I have come to a comfortable acceptance and enjoyment of who I am. And, if I'm fortunate, occasionally someone like Lisa Brandel, or a small handful of other dear friends - you all know who you are - read my work and recognize, as Lisa so eloquently described, a twinkle and sparkle in my message. I do, quite intentionally, "sprinkle happy dust" into my blog articles, my Twitter and Facebook posts. It makes me happy to do so, just from a personal point of view. It tickles me beyond words when a kindred spirit recognizes the sprinkles of happy dust and takes a moment to comment on same. That's just pure fun...there is no other way to describe it.
Perhaps another quote fits what I am attempting to communicate here. It is by one of my absolute favorite authors and poets:
"When two close kindred meet, what better than call a dance?” William Butler YeatsThere are moments when I as a writer am happy to admit that another has woven together words in such a lyrical fashion that not only could I not improve upon it, but that I am, in that moment of reading, transported. Lisa Brandel's words above, in my opinion, gave a very accurate thumb nail sketch of who I am as a writer, as a person, and what I strive to communicate in written format. It delighted me that she felt this kinship and Yeats' quote immediately came to mind to highlight that moment of shared, enjoyed whimsy. Lisa also writes with a rich hand to her words, and I encourage you to visit her blog, read, and follow.
I am a lighthearted Soul, and although it may sound contradictory, I am also deeply introspective, diving to the depths of a given topic, emotion or thought and spending endless hours observing, thinking and experiencing. I rarely look at anything at surface level - I remain curious about most things under the sun. I feel deeply, I love deeply and I write with an attempt to give voice to the wild, tempestuous feelings that clamor inside my heart to be written down.
Some days, I am happy and feel that I have succeeded in this goal. Other days, I am like anyone else, critical of my efforts and finding them sadly lacking. On those days in the future, I shall remember Lisa Brandel's happy nod and kind words; I shall automatically recall the equally lovely quote of Mr. Yeats. On the heels of all of the above, I will remind myself that I like crispy, crunchy, tart, not-quite-ripe fruit and also that I write with a sparkling shower of happy dust radiating from my proverbial pen....because that's just who I am...unripened fruit, sparkles and twinkles and so much more. Perhaps you, also, are a close kindred one and will join in the dance, partake of a bit of fruit, and share in the burst of sparkles that ensue.