Most of my closest friends and family members have become accustomed to the fact that they're fair game and fodder for my Magpie imagination. Any given conversational moment will trigger my Magpie reflex and off I go, frantically searching for something to dash off a series of handwritten notes for content of a future blog post, or a manuscript concept.
Recently, someone close to me uttered what I found to be a shining statement:
"Carpe happy, young lady."This statement came through a series of texts on a lazy weekend evening, and as indicated above, it struck my Magpie reflex. I thought, "What a great suggestion! I want that on a t-shirt!" As I am wont to do in such moments of inspiration, I studied the above suggestion. It kept calling to me as I worked through some personal thoughts. So, I kept coming back to it, circling around, pausing to study from this angle and that plane. The more I studied it, the more I could hear a deeper message entwined in the words.
The suggestion itself was a delightful moment of whimsy from a friend. I still smile at the sentiment behind the words. Taken at face value, it is an excellent and valuable suggestion! In essence, and translation, it means, "Seize the happy". As I had been experiencing a rather bubbly, happy afternoon to the point of the happy overflowing, I was driven to share with that friend in a bouncy, rollicking, cheerful text conversation. Little did I know that the suggestion would, indeed, hold deeper meaning and lessons.
I've said it many times before - I excel at getting in my own way. I will analyze the fool out of a situation, pick at it, poke at it, dissect it relentlessly until I come to whatever personal conclusion is necessary for me to feel satisfied that I fully understand that situation. It's a protection mechanism, I fully admit this. It gives me distance and lets me apply an almost clinical perspective. Sometimes this serves a very good purpose, because cooler heads and calm logic prevailing definitely hold value. It can also, however, become its own double edged sword, causing focus on negatives to the exclusion of all else....of searching for a solution that might not even be available yet, and thus, inflicting a sort of needless limbo.
On the heels of my happy afternoon, I found myself on the verge of doing that very thing...getting in my own way out of a knee jerk emotional reaction. I was on the verge of projecting a whole boatload of negative possibilities and getting wound up in a completely unnecessary manner. Negative possibilities which, mind you, hadn't even occurred and might not EVER occur. Yet there I was, angsting and worrying those possibilities into near manifestation. Law of Attraction precepts indicate that that which we focus attention on is that which we can and do manifest, so that reminder was a valuable wake up call for me.
It took me a while to recognize and identify where all of this "stuff" was coming from and what emotional triggers had been tripped, but once I did identify them, I immediately cut the cycle. I realized that I was right on the precipice of pouring old energies, negative ones at that, into a new experience. And I saw immediately how damaging that behavior could be if I allowed myself to continue. It was a poor past habit that was attempting to bully its way back in and set up housekeeping.
So, I stopped it. I cut the cycle and I shifted my immediate attention back to brighter thoughts. It wasn't easy to begin with, because fear based thinking lifts its ugly head when we're the most vulnerable, when we're on the verge of stepping into a new experience that is scary and challenging on an emotional level. I don't know many people who enjoy the sensation of being vulnerable - I know that I sure don't. But this time, I reeled in the fear based thoughts and did not allow them to sink toxic tentacles into this new experience. And the fascinating part was that within literally ten minutes of addressing this within myself, being honest, identifying the negative pattern attempting to emerge and blasting it out of existence, I had something occur that was almost instantly reassuring, instantly positive, instantly encouraging. The relief and clear recognition of how each conscious thought, step and action had its own equal and opposite and positive reaction was lovely.
My decision with all of this nudges me to a behavior that I tend to not embrace that often, and that is living in the Now. I'm much better at planning things to a meticulous level, because it is another protective mechanism. That being said, this moment of epiphany clearly showed me that there is a great deal of merit in living in the Now and being appreciative of each present moment. For me, that behavior requires stepping out of old habits and patterns. I'm quite good at living in the Now when it comes to writing, but the true LIVING part of it, well, I admit that I dance around that one and shy from it much more than I embrace it.
It took some work on my part and a conscious choice to be brave, along with being vulnerable. I'm still not altogether comfortable with that mix - bravery and vulnerability - but I'm stepping forward anyway. And I'm doing it in the mindset suggested above: Carpe happy, young lady!
I believe this is going to become a new mantra for me. It carries such a happy, lighthearted message, tone and vibration. When I read the words, my heart is immediately lifted up and my lips tilt in an irresistible smile. It prompts such a nice, zippy, bubbly energy that I was driven to share it with you here, and being a southern belle of sorts, I simply cannot resist tweaking the message to embrace you all:
Carpe happy, y'all! :)